when i leave you i think my heart will die

you taught me that i am alive
and faced with that decision, to live or to exist in a state that is not living
i must choose life

how can i live and die at once?
is this pain death, or is it part of life?
my heart and mind at once reject what they embrace
which is life and love and the acceptance
that a love that runs so deep can be sacrificed and not lost

it feels like death
but i live